a song from the heart....

my friend birthday and i forgot to wish her happy birthday and sometimes i can behave like a immature little child and she told me that,the fact that i`m a bit insensitive made lots of people go further away from me.
i want to be friend with her until well kinda forever but she is asking me to change and that made me feel quite bad bout my self.i don`t know if its sympathy is the reason of her being a good friend with me but i guess i`ll just accept my destiny even if i`m always alone.....
but this is how i feel.......



its a song about what my emotions are when she told me all of that and when all the friend i wanna be with went away...

sorry if i am a burden.
FYI this is the lyrics......

im a black sky , in the middle of the night 

im..wounded in the heart

i don`t have anybody,somebody yes 

im lonely from the start.

yeah~~

bring me a light, give me a moon 

starlight music and tunes~~

bring me a dancing shoe 

so i can dance for the truth.oh yeah

**  cuz im a black sky

thunder and rain flowing by

landslides happen in my heart 

its as if the ground torn apart

**  YES im a black sky,i don`t know why

the star just won`t shine.no~~

no im not happy 

this ain`t supposed to be like this

is it cuz im black sky

maybe somebody will bring me a moon 

but i still won`t smile

maybe i`ll be happy and laughing all the time soon

but i think its gonna take a while

bring my glasses so i can see in the night

give me a reason to smile at

so i`ll have a reason to fight

**

**

sorry im not perfect,im not the kind u wish of

sorry im not mature,i have a temper that people hate of

but im not six year old,i can know on my own

maybe i`ll change one day but this is the way i will stay

cuz a black sky will always be black

this song is bout me looking myself in the mirror and knowing my flaws and trying to move on and trying to change.but to my friend changing isn`t that easy,it will somehow eat my whole heart up.so if i did not change i won`t say sorry cuz i tried my best.